Blessing and Blessons…the practice of Gratitude ~AK

Hey all! In typical AK fashion, I have gone hermit mode…again.  I’m back though and feeling amazing!  The past 2 months of my ascension journey have been intense, some days brutal, but I am grateful for it all.  November has always been one of my favorite months, Thanksgiving my favorite holiday.  A few years ago, my cousin and I posted for the entire month, things we were grateful for.   I want to bring that back, so I’m going to start a 30 day/November gratitude challenge with y’all and our FB/IG/YouTube followers.  Everyday I’ll post and hope you will comment and share the amazing gifts in your life.

The fall of 2016 was the darkest point in my life.  Dark Night of the Soul is experienced during awakening, where all the shit comes crashing down.  This can be triggered in many ways…trauma, near-death experiences, etc…for me, it was the separation from my Twin Flame. The pain of losing my person, the heart of my heart, soul of my soul was like the sun disappearing, there was nothing but darkness.   Needless to say, I was not feeling grateful for much 2 years ago.

January of 2017 was the year of my awakening.  I came out of the dark and began the work of finding the light.  That spring I was guided to information on the power of gratitude and I began practicing giving thanks daily.  Not that I hadn’t in the past, I was raised saying grace before dinner and to always say thank you, but looking back, it was inauthentic, programmed and done out of duty more than genuinely feeling grateful.  It felt silly at first, to wake up and say thank you for this new day, to eat slowly, savoring every bite as I said thank you for the food, to give thanks for a hot shower, comfortable bed, roof over my head, the sound of birds chirping, the rain (doesn’t happen much in the desert).  I literally spent as many moments as I could just being grateful…for every fucking thing…the sun, music, clean water, my children (even when they were driving me bat-shit crazy), clothes, money for gas, my car that got me to work, my career as a teacher (even though I was beginning to see it was not for me anymore)…you get the idea.  Around April, I was beginning to really feel happy, from the inside…I can honestly say it was fucking strange to feel happy, genuinely happy, but there was still work to do.  I was still holding anger, resentment, guilt, shame for so much shit in my life and the people who inflicted their pain onto me.  Like most of us, I was grateful for the blessings, but still holding low vibrations towards the people, and experiences, that hurt me.  One major shift that happened though, is the more I practiced gratitude, the more present I became, the more the things I was grateful for happened…as within, so without…my focus shifted from lack perspective to an abundance mindset.

June of 2017 had me beginning a daily meditation and yoga practice, my awakening in full swing.  I cannot tell you enough how absolutely transforming both are to mind, body and spirit.  Neither are easy at first, like all things they take practice and commitment…over a year of yoga 5-6 days a week and it’s still not easy, but I am grateful for the challenge.  I had also left the public school system I had taught in for 15 years and took a teaching position at a charter school, believing it was a better system for my very out of the box approach to teaching.  I was so fucking wrong, so wrong…it was worse, more confining, more robot like, more conformist…all things that insult me at a soul level and I knew it was time to leave the education system.  At this point in my Twin Flame journey, we were back to talking everyday, our partnership seemed to be heading in a positive direction, towards union, so I thought….man, I’ve thought a lot of things and awakening has shown me how absolutely fucking backwards we all are.  I left teaching fucking angry…I was at peace with my decision, knowing that it wasn’t my place anymore, but fuck was I pissed at a system that I gave my heart and soul to that gave me nothing back.  At this point, the Law of Giving and Receiving had become very clear and the awakening to the fact that our government systems were fucked up and don’t give a shit about me, or you, any of us really pissed me the fuck off.  I left feeling an enormous amount of love and gratitude towards my students, but that was it.  Today, I am so grateful for my teaching career, all of it…even the shitty ass education system that has taught me what we need to fix in this country, in all of our fucked up systems.  I am grateful for the shitty pay, gave me another great lesson on giving and receiving…also, on how fucking deserving and worthy I am.

2018 has been my year of ascension, of doing the deepest soul work to transcend the 3D reality, to align with my higher self and evolve.  The most work has been related to the lower chakras….releasing fear, guilt, shame, insecurities, etc…going deep to the root of those feelings, childhood & past life regressions to upgrade my DNA, to heal ancestral wounds that had been carried through generations, to heal all the shit all feminines carry, to move into full Unity & Christ consciousness.  It has been brutal fucking work, but the blessings and blessons that have come from still blow my mind some days.  The amount of self-compassion, forgiveness and love I have had to give myself , and in turn been able to give to others, has not been easy.  I have had to move multiple times, had my car repo’d and lost many (so-called) friends. I have struggled to get my business up and running, failed at this blog and my YouTube channel, due to my own insecurities/fears…there have been massive lessons to learn from, but I am grateful for EVERY FUCKING THING, sounds crazy I know…homeless, jobless, broke, what the fuck should I be grateful for?

I have been humbled by the universe and it has given me the lessons needed to be the badass Empath I was born to be.  It’s easy to be grateful for the blessings, the good shit that happens in life, but it is the blessons (blessings in the lessons) that are the greatest gifts.

I am grateful for the narcissists (my mother and Ex #2) in my life, they have taught me that there are others who carry far more pain than I.  Can you imagine how badly someone must feel to inflict that pain onto others with no remorse?   They have taught me how incredibly strong I am, to be able to withstand the pain inflicted and still have the capacity to love, to empathize, to find the light in the darkness.  They have taught me, along with other shitty humans, how not to be, who not to be, to always rise above, to be better and do better.  I am truly blessed to see my mother grow, through my ability to set boundaries and my insane self-respect.  Ex #2 gave me my son and my Twin, I am grateful for his role to bring blessings into my life. Don’t get me wrong, I do not wish these people the best, I wish them to get what they deserve…not my problem, I’m letting the Universe and Karma do it’s thing.

I am grateful for my Twin and this crazy ass Twin Flame journey.  He has been my mirror, my catalyst, to awakening, healing, soul liberation…to me…the authentic me and I know we are never separated. Every time he has run, hurt me has only been a reflection of him, his pain, fears and insecurities and strangely, it just makes me send more love, more light to him.  There is no separation in this amazing universe…time, space, distance can never separate Twins, nor any of us for that matter.

I am grateful for losing possessions, they’re just things, stuff we carry around and cling to thinking it gives us safety, security, happiness…such a crock of programmed bullshit.  There is NOT ONE FUCKING THING outside of you that will bring you the joy, peace, love we are all seeking.  Guess what, I’m still here and I now am able to use my Empath superpowers in even more ways because I truly get the shit we all go through.  It also showed me, who is important in my life.  The people I should invest my energy into.

I am grateful for the family and friends that have bailed, they’ve only made space for better.  The people who stick by you when the shit goes down, they’re the only ones you need…and I don’t give one flying fuck if it’s your parent, child, significant other, best friend…if they aren’t there when you need them the most let them fucking go…I promise, as scary as it is, it is for the best…for you to find your tribe, soul family…the people who see you, accept you and love you unconditionally.  If the giving and receiving isn’t equal, bail the fuck out, you deserve better.  Quality over quantity, loves, my dad taught me that.

So, let’s spread some love, light and gratitude this month.  Let’s see ourselves in each other and be grateful for every breath we’re given.  Each moment is a gift, a chance to be better and do better, for ourselves and each other.  Follow us and our moth of gratitude not only here, but at akmitch1975 on Instagram, or I’m blackbirdoracle on IG/IGTV/YouTube (I do daily guidance readings on IGTV, if you feel guided to check it out).  We will also post on our FB page…Oh My Goddess and are intending to get a video up soon on our YouTube channel…OhmMyGoddess.  We are so fucking grateful for all the support…our followers here and the likes, subscribes, etc. on our social media.

Sending you all shit tons of love & light & gratitude

AK

Grateful Goddess

P.S.  Like everything…the gratitude shift had to begin with me and I am so fucking grateful for me and the people, places and experiences that have contributed to where I am today.

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Can’t Win Either Way, so Fuck Them… A Skinny Perspective-AK

Selfish Mitch and I have talked about this alot…30 years of weight, clothes, hair, make-up, diet…in a society that bases everything on the external, how you look seems like the most important thing ever.  Fuck that noise…honestly, that’s pretty much always been my perspective on physical appearance.  As an Empath, I have the ability to know people on an energetic, soul level…seeing past the physical and understanding the non-physical.  For me, someone’s physical appearance is confirmation of what I am picking up psychically.  As within, so without (are y’all sick of me saying this, yet)…how we feel, what we believe, about ourselves on the inside is manifested in the physical.  We all know plenty of skinny, pretty people that are so shallow on the inside, the outside doesn’t become so attractive anymore.  On the flip side, we all know plenty of people that are not considered “attractive”, by this fucked up society’s standards, but are the BEST people in the world.  When Selfish Mitch and I met, way back at 14 (1989 lol), I was not even 5 feet tall, maybe 70 lbs….I don’t know Mitch’s stats off the top of my head, but she was taller and weighed more.  I didn’t give a fuck how she looked…when she introduced herself, I saw her soul, her light and I loved her instantly.  I can’t really relate my experience to any TV character, as I really don’t watch TV.  I’ve never been big on what’s going on in the media and/or celebrities…I just really don’t care about the people chosen to be our role models.  As far as I’m concerned, these people are in the public eye to manipulate how we feel and what we believe about ourselves…that we are never enough…smart, skinny, pretty, talented, you get the idea.  These are the messages all around us everyday & it’s bullshit.

I’ve never been one to worry about my weight. I”ve always been tiny… I am fine boned and not built to carry much weight.  During my pregnancies I gained, of course, and Selfish Mitch, I did hit 166 lbs. at the very end of my first pregnancy (I had gained 51 lbs).  However, before my daughter was 6 months old, I was back to 120 lbs.  Breastfeeding and some Billy Blanks, Tae-Bo, whipped me right back into shape.  The other 2 pregnancies I gained around 40 lbs. and lost the weight due to stress, fatigue and anxiety, brought on by the ending of shitty marriages.  Unlike many, I shut down when stressed out.  There have been days where I literally cannot bring myself to eat. Not the healthiest way to lose weight, but it’s just who I am and how my body works. I have never been a big eater, I eat to live, not live to eat.  I have always just eaten whatever I want, whenever I want and I know many that wish they could do the same.  Skinny, fat…that shit doesn’t matter, we all have our shadows.  Although, at the end of the second marriage, after years of narcissist abuse, the weight loss wasn’t healthy, like I was going to die if it continued, serious shit…my ob/gyn began monitoring my weight.  I was teaching and would have to deal with all kinds of judgmental bullshit in the Teacher’s Lounge.  “Do you ever eat?”  “I wish I was as thin as you!”  “You know you don’t need to lose weight, don’t you?” on & on, daily basis and it sucked.  Skinny chicks get shit, too.

The judgments, the rude comments and sexual innuendos.  My god, I could write a book on the shit men have said to me about my body.  Fucking degrading and disgusting.  In high school, I was told I was a carpenter’s dream:  flat as a board and easy to nail.  At 15 years old, I was flat chested, still am and it never bothered me.  At 15 years old, I was a virgin, yet found myself to be a whore because of how I looked, part of that being my size. I was shoved into a locker once, as well, pretty sure it was an option because I’m tiny. I have had more men than I care to count leering at me, making comments about my body and what they would like to do to it.  This shit still happens to me at 42…I’m friends with a guy that continually speaks about what he would like to do to me, sexually, even though I have more than once said we are just friends.  I’ve flat out said not going to happen, dude.  But, he thinks it’s cute and funny to make these comments.  On the flip side, I’ve been told I would look better with some more meat on my bones.  Selfish Mitch knows a guy, that at her birthday party last year, told me I would look better with bigger boobs and he would buy them for me.  My response was, “Thanks, but I love myself just the way I am.” My narc ex told me a few months ago, I look like a meth addict.  For the fucking love of Buddha, a meth addict?  The shit people project onto others is just fucking ridiculous.

Today, I eat a mostly vegetarian diet, although I don’t believe in following any diet, like everything else for me, there is no box.  I listen to my body and it tells me what it needs.  I eat when I’m hungry, sometimes that’s once a day with a bunch of snacks.  Sometimes, it’s 3 meals a day with a bunch of snacks…my snacks are bananas, nuts, Cliff bars, you get the idea.  If I want ice cream, I eat the damn ice cream.  I do yoga 5/6 days a week and I walk dogs, 2-5 miles daily…guess what, I’m not going to be gaining any weight anytime soon, so anyone with a problem can fuck right off.  On top of eating and exercising,  I’m in ascension.  Basically, my body is becoming lighter, purer, to hold higher energetic frequencies.  Hence, the changes in my diet and being guided to yoga.  These changes occur during the spiritual awakening to prepare the physical body for ascension.  I will say, the yoga has done some mind blowing things to my body.  I have muscles where I’m pretty sure they have never existed before and that is just the cherry on top, when it comes to the benefits of yoga.  In the past year, I have come to love my body in ways I never really thought about.  Today,  I choose to show my body how sacred and loved it is by how I treat it on the daily.  I do have one last bad habit though…smoking and it pisses me the fuck off.  But, I’m aware and working on it, every damn day.

I’m skinny, tiny, thin…my physical body meets societies expectations, but I really don’t give a fuck and it never stopped people from being aholes to me.  The shallow, superficial way of thinking and treating each other needs to stop, like yesterday.  If anyone judges, comments, eye rolls, at your body, or what you choose to wear…know this…THEY ARE FUCKING INSECURE and PROJECTING THAT SHIT ONTO YOU…don’t let them take your power, your knowing of who you are and what makes you happy.  Here’s the thing, it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks about YOUR body, it’s your fucking body and you are in it for a reason.  If you can’t love your body, as it is, right now…start, it’s an integral part of self-care and self-love and it starts right where your at.  Not where you want to be, or intend to be…now.  If you can’t love it right this fucking minute, than you’re never going to love it as you imagine it to be, so it doesn’t really matter what anyone else thinks, does it?

Peace Love and Light To Every Shape & Size

AK

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Straighten Your Crown…You Are Divine

We all wear a crown, most of us aren’t aware of it.  Programming has us believing that God is something separate from us.  This distorted God of organized religion has us all fucked up, unable to see that we are all God, the embodiment of unconditional love and light in human form.  The Crown chakra is located at the top of the head, this purple chakra influences our spirituality, our connection to higher consciousness, inspiration and wisdom.  When blocked, we experience loneliness, depression, mental disorders, confusion, lack of purpose and/or sleep problems.  I have definitely experienced a blocked crown throughout my life and definitely through my spiritual awakening.

As a child, loneliness was common…I never felt like I fit in anywhere, not even with my family.  As I’ve gone through my awakening, I’ve come to realize that this is quite common with lightworkers (Twin Flames, Starseeds, Empaths, Earth Angels, etc.).  The times I felt the least alone were actually the times I was alone…weird, I know, but true. When alone, I could read,  listen to music, daydream and connect to my spirit guide and angels.  In this place, I was never alone…in crowds, or around people, was the opposite.  Still is…as an Introvert, I love my quiet, alone time…it is essential for me.  It is essential for all of us.  The loneliness of a spiritual awakening is for a purpose, to learn that you are never alone when connected to the Divine.

As of late, I have been a little cloudy on why I’ve gone through this awakening, what is my purpose now.  I knew at an early age I wanted to be a teacher and leaving teaching was one of the most confusing decisions.  I was guided to do so and felt at peace with the decision, but what the fuck was I going to do next?  I started this blog, guided to share my experience with you all, but wondered what else?  I know, and have always known, that I was destined for something big, but I had no clue what that big was…still a little unsure, but the unfolding of the path has been absolutely magical.  The massive shifts happening to all, have for me, brought more clarity to who I am at a soul level and why I am here.   I’ll blog on this very soon and possibly do a video on our YouTube channel.  Since the blog, I have started 2 YouTube channels with the hope, like the blog, of planting seeds of awareness and helping others through shifts in consciousness that we all are experiencing.  I have also started my own Tarot business with the intention of guiding other’s through their journey of self-transformation.  It’s busy, but I love it and time means nothing when I’m helping others with love and passion.

How do we open the Crown chakra and our connection to the Divine?  MEDITATE, MEDITATE, MEDITATE…I cannot say it enough.  If there is one practice we all should do and teach our children it’s MEDITATE.  As I’ve said before, you are the only one who knows you best.  But, what you do you know?  The ego/3D you or the Divine/5D you?  Meditation is the best way to learn and know yourself at a soul level and I will blog on this soon, as well.    Meditating as little as 10 minutes a day can change your whole perspective on self and others, as well as it’s millions of other benefits.  Prayer is another way to connect, but not the fucked up praying of organized religion.  My mother to this day, tells me I need to get on my knees and pray…ummmm, hello, this is the girl that literally communicates with angels, pretty sure I’ve got my own way of praying.  That’s the thing about spirituality, meditation, prayer…there is no one way of, or right way,  doing it.  It’s all about YOU and what works best for YOU.  I meditate a lot more than 10 minutes a day, operating from a higher consciousness, I sometimes feel I am in a meditative state most of the time.  That’s just me, though…Selfish Mitch was very resistant to meditation until recently and I hope she’ll blog (hint, hint) about her experience and how she makes meditation work for her.

An open, balanced Crown chakra brings peace, unity consciousness, clarity of thought and purpose aligned to intuition and enlightenment.  Listen, this is not easy and we are programmed to be attached to the material world, but to reach a higher consciousness, we must detach from possessions and relationships, they do not define us at a soul level.  Spirituality is not about religion…it is about YOU and your relationship to self and Source (or God, if you prefer).  I tend to not use either label, but choose to call it the Divine, the Universe, spirit…you get to choose what resonates with you.  I read somewhere that religion is for people who fear hell, spirituality for those who have been through hell.  Connecting with the non-physical, through your Crown chakra, you learn there is nothing to fear, fear is an illusion, programmed into us to keep us ignorant to the truth…we are all Divine, we are all Source energy here to have a human experience.

I have to tell y’all, this has been the hardest chakra to write about…I though it would be simple, but it touches on so many sensitive subjects, like God, religion, human versus soul…and I’m struggling a bit with explaining it all…oh fucking well, all I can do is try.  If you have any questions, or need guidance, in starting a meditation practice(or anything else), please comment, e-mail, reach out in any way…I’m always here to help anyone in any way I can.  I hope you all have a magical day!!

Peace Love and Light Beautiful Souls

AK

Divine Bad Ass Goddess

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See More with Your Eye, than with Your Eyes

Oh me, oh my…so much to say about the 6th Chakra, the Third Eye chakra.  This Indigo chakra is located in the center of your forehead.  It is the energy center for intuition, imagination, self-realization, clarity, transcendence and psychic abilities.  These past few days, as we move towards the Blood Moon Eclipse (which is expected to be the longest eclipse, ever), the energies are crazy and my third eye has been going through a serious activation.  Feeling tingling in the forehead, pressure around the eyes and temples are signs of your third eye opening and these have been super intense for me.  The universal energies are affecting everyone, whether aware of it, or not.  For me, this time is a serious shift in my ascension.  I did a daily draw reading with Selfish Mitch this morning and her first card was the 6th chakra card…no coincidences, loves.  We did a full energy reading a few nights ago and spirit was definitely guiding her to trust her intuition.  Which I know first hand is not so easy to do.   EVERYTHING is Divinely orchestrated, pretty fucking mind blowing when you realize how it all works.  Opening and strengthening your third eye is essential in understanding how the Universe works.

In high school, I started to get severe migraines.  Blood tests were done, doctors seen, meds given…but no explanation for why I they were happening.  Maybe anemia, dehydration, anxiety, over sensitive…what a fucking joke.  Migraines continued off and on throughout my life until I started meditating.  It wasn’t anything modern medicine could answer, as with most things there was a much simpler ancient way of curing my migraines…self-awareness, trust in myself and learning how to do this through practices like meditation, yoga, journalling (I do automatic/channeled writing), clean eating and trial and error.  One of my favorite things about using Tarot cards is the help they give in confirming what I am receiving through my spidey senses (the name for my psychic abilities).  My migraines were the physical manifestation of not listening to and trusting my intuition.  Some of the other symptoms of a blocked 6th chakra are:  anxiety, depression, insomnia, eye ans/or facial problems, like cataracts or acne.

There is so much more to see than what’s physically in front of your face and that’s where your third eye comes in.  When it’s blocked you will feel a lack of focus, poor judgment/imagination and are unable to see beyond the physical.  Most humans are here, the third eye has been made out as something only for the bat-shit crazy…the programming is deep on this one, peeps.  We have been taught not to trust our intuition, to always go logical, but some shit just isn’t logical.  Our intuition is tied to our emotional body…if it feels right, looks right than it’s a go…sure that one makes sense.  If it feels wrong and looks wrong…it’s wrong.  No fucking surprise there.  Now how about this…if it looks wrong, but feels right…what do you do?  Most overthink it and go with logic, ignoring the feeling…bad move…that is usually where we fuck it up…it goes against our intuition.  When I made the decision to retire from teaching, it looked wrong, real fucking wrong…not just to me, to everyone.  It felt right, though and when I signed that paper, it was pure freedom…it felt so fucking amazing and I felt lighter than I had in years.  It was terrifying and logically it made very little sense, but how it felt was all I needed to know that I made the right decision.  Last one, what if it looks right, but feels wrong…DON”T FUCKING DO IT!!!  Lol, no seriously, don’t go there…whatever, or whomever it is, stay the fuck away…trust your feeling it fuels your intuition.

An overactive Third Eye is a whole ‘nother ball game of whackadoodle and feel it explains a number of mental illnesses (we’ll go there another day).  Nightmares, delusions, hallucinations, obsessive behaviors and seeing too many entities and/or spirits are what happens when one has an overactive 6th chakra.  I can honestly say that nightmares are really the only one of these symptoms I’ve experienced and it’s been a hell of a long time since even that has happened.  As a child, trauma was the catalyst to my nightmares and a period of sleepwalking.  I don’t really remember much except they occurred during a time that I felt scared and very alone.  When I do childhood regressions to heal my inner child, I generally don’t “see” the experience, I feel it…I literally feel the emotions of how I felt at that time…it’s how I work as an Empath and my strongest psychic ability.  Clairvoyance is something new to me that really began opening around the summer solstice and I am just beginning to get comfortable with being shown things.  I can totally empathize with those who experience and overactive 3rd eye now, as “hallucinations” or visions, can make you feel absolutely bat-shit crazy.  I believe this is why so many are labeled mentally ill, when they are actually awake and open to the non-physical.

The seat of the Third Eye is the Pineal Gland…I’m going to get a little scientific here, but not too much…I am jsut starting to learn and study the science part of spirituality and it is fucking mind blowing.  Have you ever heard of the Pineal gland?  Did we learn this in anatomy classes?  I know I sure didn’t and why the fuck not?  It’s a part of my body and I’m kept in the goddamn dark about it…fucking mind control, programming, this shit is fucked up, y’all.  Anyways, the pineal gland is a gland located  in the brain, where I’ve described the location of the 3rd Eye chakra…I’m going to attach some related articles and shit, because quite honestly the science part is not my forte…I know this, Fluoride, that has been given to us for many years, calcifies and blocks the pineal gland.  Our government has been giving as something that is meant to control our ability to use our 3rd eye chakra, as well as, causing cancer.  I have recently began practices that help decalcify the pineal gland in order to have my 3rd eye functioning as it should.  Sunlight is a big one that helps do this, as well as, changing my diet.  We are being controlled through our food, our water supply, our media…fucking everything and all will be exposed soon, why not get a jump on the massive shifts that are happening in the human collective?  I will do a blog next week on foods and chakras.  Enough science and anarchy for now though.

This has probably gotten a little long winded, lol…guess all this 3rd eye activation I’m experiencing, along with telepathy has got me fired up about this amazing chakra.  It’s a fucking trip, y’all…the telepathy, my Twin Flame & I have been communicating through all of our chakras for quite sometime, but these current universal energies have ramped it the fuck up.  Truth, still quite surreal to know what someone (that I’m not even speaking to) is thinking and feeling at any given moment in the day and in dreams (5D), as well.  This eclipse is a great time to try meditation (if you don’t already do it) and go inward, use/open your 3rd eye chakra to get the answers you seek.  You are your own best guru…there are many, like me, who can offer guidance and healing, but ultimately it’s you that knows you best, you just have to get to know yourself at a soul level.  Once there, you will see how absolutely amazing and fucking powerful you are!!

Peace Love & Light Beautiful Souls

AK

P.S.  Tomorrow I will be going on our YouTube channel…OhmMyGoddess to do eclipse readings for the Zodiac signs, check it out if your interested on what the Universe is asking you to release during this powerful shift.

Speak Your Truth…But Don’t Forget to Listen

FUUUUUUCK, let me clear my throat…actually, saying Fuck is a great way to clear your Throat Chakra.  This turquoise chakra is located at the center of your throat and controls your ability to be confident, speak clearly and the hardest listen to others’ truths, with no judgement.  Looking back, I’ve gone back and forth between being balanced, overactive and blocked…that’s me a fucking walking contradiction.  ‘Tis a real thing for Empaths, as we absorb the energy around us when we are not in balance.  A balanced Empath knows how to control the energy, put out rather than let in…it’s pretty fucking cool how powerful we all are once we understand that we are energetic beings.  Writing this blog is one way I keep a balanced throat chakra, as all forms of communication flow through this chakra.

As always, I’m going to keep it real…I have absolutely had an overactive throat chakra throughout different times in my life.  How do you know if this chakra is overactive, AK?  Well, let me tell you…opinionated, loud, critical, gossipy, talks over others, uses harsh words…sound familiar to you?  It certainly pertains to me.  Ugh, hard to accept that I absolutely acted in these ways…kind of makes me cringe.  Yet, I can’t get mad at myself, there were so many things I didn’t know and programming is a motherfucker.  So, I have accepted that part of me and work everyday to be better, balanced, always coming from a place of pure love.  Feminines have been programmed to behave this way, this shit is everywhere…the belief that we must compete against each other, put each other down to build ourselves up is disgusting and it is up to us to stop it.

Not only have I acted out in these ways, but being the child of a narcissist, harsh words, judgments and criticism are all things I experienced (and still do) on the daily.  One of the hardest boundaries I’ve had to set is not talking to my mother.  Every time I talk to her I am put down, dismissed and made to feel inadequate.  It fucking sucks, y’all…to be so aware of what’s happening (she’s projecting her own insecurities and fears onto me) and accept that that’s just the way it’s going to be.  This is my truth…I will never have the mother I so desperately wanted.  How do I transmute this pain from a place of pure love?  I am grateful that she taught me how not to be a mother.  As a mother, I am the exact opposite and am at peace knowing this.  Listen, I love my mother, I love everyone, but that doesn’t mean I have to put up with verbal and emotional abuse, I choose to set boundaries that protect my energy, as fucking hard as it can be.
Then there’s the flip side, the blocked Throat Chakra.  Yup, been there, too…this one more recently because for me, I have always blocked my truth from others.  When you know at a young age that you are different, that you scare people and know things that others don’t understand, you tend to become a people-pleaser to just make everyone happy.  This happens to more children than you think, as all children are psychic and more aware of the non-physical.  It is a common trait among children and adults of Narcissist abuse.  I’ll write a more in depth blog about that soon.  So, when one has a blocked throat chakra, they are unable to express themselves, misunderstood, secretive and not very good a listening.  Listening is a fucking BIG one for me.  I read people at a soul level, when they talk I don’t always listen to their words because I am feeling and receiving information about them on an energetic level, through my psychic abilities.  It’s a tough one, folks and one I work on daily.  I’ve also come to the awareness that most people never really listen to each other.  Most seem to listen just to reply, in fact they have a reply before you even finish what the fuck you were saying.  Again, I’m guilty of this, but awareness of the problem is the way to better yourself.  I believe it is hard for humans, because of programming, to listen to ourselves, as well…our true selves, our higher selves, our souls.  The truth can be fucking brutal and we have been conditioned to blame and play victim instead of taking responsibility, be accountable for our own shit.

When the 5th chakra is overactive/blocked, you may physically feel: a sore, scratchy throat, stiff neck, swollen glands, tooth/gum problems and hearing problems. Ears and throat are most definitely connected.  Also, this chakra is usually blocked because of experiences (such as my own) from childhood moments/experiences.  I’ve done a shit ton of childhood regressions, through Tarot and meditation, that have helped me heal from those experiences and in turn, heal my Throat Chakra.  Keeping it real, it was fucking brutal work.  I’m telling you all, total truth, getting to place of self love is the hardest fucking thing to do…but, the reward of living a free, fulfilled life…no better gift you can give yourself.   Another thing about this chakra is what you think and say is your Karma and I have definitely paid some major Karmic debt for the shitty, judgmental, gossipy bullshit I put out there.  Whether this lifetime, or another, your Karma will have to be repaid.

Clearly, my Throat chakra is flowing today, but I will end here.  Recently, my channeling has taken a shift and I am being guided to act as a Divine Feminine Oracle, to inspire,  empower and guide all feminines to heal and love themselves…the journey is tough, but so are you, beautiful souls.  Please do not hesitate to reach out in any way…you are never alone and loved more than you know.

Peace Love and Light

AK

Divine Warrior Goddess

P.S.  I have so much to share about the Chakra system, that after I go through each one, there will be a few more tied to yoga, crystals, etc.  I will also be posting memes and infographics on our FB page (Oh My Goddess), so like/follow etc.

 

 

The Heart of the Matter

Oh love, where do I even begin…the heart chakra is located in the center of the chest, no big surprise there.  When this green chakra is balanced we feel peaceful, loving, accepting, compassionate, warm and open.  I feel it’s important to point out that this chakra is all about pure, unconditional love…one of the highest vibrations we can have.  Sadly, this pure love is rarely experienced.  As within, so without…my mantra…meaning what we feel on the inside is what we experience on the outside.  In my experience, most humans do not have this type of love for themselves, therefore cannot give this pure love to others.  Hurt people, hurt people…it is not love that causes pain, it is the absence of love, of self love.  We are not hurt by love, but by humans that do not know how to love. Self-love is the foundation to living a fulfilled life.

Meditation and chakra work have been instrumental practices for my journey to self love.  Chakra’s help identify where healing needs to take place in order to develop a pure love of self.  As an Empath, it’s always been easy for me to give pure love to others, expecting nothing in return…it’s what Empaths do.  However, giving myself that pure love was another story.  An overactive heart chakra will manifest feelings of jealousy, co-dependency and self sacrifice.  The last 2 being huge in my life.  I would give and give and give and get nothing in return.  Conditioning has taught feminines that this is an acceptable way to live and I see this happen far to often to amazing women.  Let me tell you something…NO ONE WILL FILL YOUR CUPS FOR YOU, YOU HAVE TO DO IT FOR YOUR DAMN SELF!!  One, if not the biggest lesson, I have learned through my spiritual awakening.  Once you are in the space of pure love of self, it is absolutely magical what comes back…pure love…fucking weird, lol.  I feel many believe that pure love means giving and being walked all over, at least that’s the way it worked for me.  Now that I absolutely love me, all of me (shadows included), boundaries have become easy.   With me it’s pretty simple, if you come at me with low vibes, you gots to go.  It’s harder with family, of course, but there are still ways to protect your energy and keep it vibin’ high.

When the heart chakra is blocked, we encounter humans who are apathetic, bitter, hateful, intolerant and have trust issues.  Anyone come to mind?  I don’t know about you all, but i can think of many.  Actually most people I know, don’t have much self love going on.  My mother has been the hardest person to set boundaries with, but as uncomfortable as it was, she is beginning to respect them and what a fucking change in our relationship.  Self love has also made it easy for me to see that her judgments are simply a reflection of her, nothing to do with me. That’s the thing we’re not taught, that the people who hurt us are hurting on the inside…it really has absolutely nothing, not a single fucking thing to do with us.  Yet, we take it personally.  If you have read The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, I suggest you get a hold of it.

Self love is about accepting all that one is…light and dark.  Showing yourself compassion and forgiveness when mistakes are made.  Understanding that we are perfect souls, having imperfect human experiences.  It’s the absolute, utter knowing that you are perfect just the way you are.  It’s forgiving those who hurt us, but more importantly forgiving ourselves and it’s fucking hard, but oh so worth it.  Self love is more than facials, spa days and shopping…it’s implementing daily practices like meditation, yoga, whatever the fuck makes your heart happy.  It’s digging deep, using the information from chakra work, to identify where healing needs to take place in order to get to that place of a balanced heart chakra.   As a healer, it’s what I teach and guide others to do, so please do not hesitate to reach out if interested and committed to doing the work it takes to love yourself, fill your own cups and live the fulfilled life you deserve.

Peace Love & Light Y’all

AK

P.S.  What are you doing today to show yourself some love?

P.P.S.  Energy Infographic:

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Sex, Intimacy and Dare I say…the Feels

Oh fuuuuuck…the big 3 of every relationship (we’ll talk about communication with the throat chakra…although, you’re probably starting to get that it’s all fucking connected).  The Sacral Chakra is located just below your belly button, is orange in color and gives us information in regards to our emotions, sexuality, and creativity.  I’ve read many times, that it is a frequently blocked chakra for women and it makes total sense, but through my journey as a Twin Flame, I can tell you it’s an off balanced chakra for men, as well.

A huge part of spiritual awakening, is healing and healing is all I have been focused on for the past year…I admit, I was carrying a ton of shit and when I began this journey to self, I had no fucking clue just how much shit there was.  Our journey as souls, having a human experience isn’t a straight path and as it spirals lessons and healing that have not occurred will continue to come back.  We also bring into each life the shit from our past lives and our ancestors.  This is where I am in my journey, past life shit and how it connects to the present.  A lot of my guidance, is telling me that it is imperative to heal these ancient wounds in order to move fully into the future, so that’s where I’ve been focusing, always following my intuition and Divine team of ascended masters, spirit guides and angels.

So, the Sacral chakra…as feminine energy in a woman’s body, there is little doubt that this little sucker needs to be attuned frequently.  When the sacral chakra is blocked feelings of shame, guilt, lack/fear of intimacy and low sex drive/self esteem/worthlessness take over.  These are feelings I’ve felt my entire fucking life, sexual abuse, harassment and relationships with emotionally constipated/narcissistic men have been common patterns in my life.  Shit, not only with men, but women, as well.  Growing up, my mother made me feel shamed and guilt on a daily basis and I continued to carry these feelings into adulthood. I now understand that these feelings were not my own to carry, they belong to the people who projected them onto me.  This is common with Empaths, we are magnets for the hurt and when not aware of how we filter emotional energy, we absorb.  Not to say that I’m completely innocent here…I’m not perfect and have had my own guilt & shame over choices I’ve made, including my sexuality and inability, at times, to be vulnerable in my emotions, out of fear of hurting others.  Some of these feelings have been put there by our fucked up patriarchal society, that dismisses the importance of our emotional intelligence.  Simple things are society has been programmed to believe, like the word homewrecker.

home·wreck·er
ˈhōmˌrekər/
noun

informal
  1. a person who is blamed for the breakup of a marriage or family, especially due to having engaged in an affair with one member of a couple.
    “she was accused of being a homewrecker”

This is the first definition that pops up in Google…I’m okay with the fact that it says person in the definition, but look at the example sentence…have you EVER FUCKING heard anyone call a man a homewrecker?  Just this simple word BLAMES women for ending a relationship…I call BULL FUCKING SHIT.  I know this is a very small example, but you all can think of a million more surrounding us everyday.  Here’s the thing though, this patriarchal programming hasn’t helped men either.

I can’t think of 1 man I know that is emotionally mature, who is capable of being vulnerable and openly communicating their feelings.  I don’t blame them though, I blame the systems, the programming that has us all fucked up.  There is a gross invalidation of feelings that begins at birth with our boys.  As a mother of 2 boys (15 and 4), I have experienced this and it breaks my fucking heart.  As a teacher, I have seen it in boys as young as 5.  How many time have you heard/seen someone tell a little boy to “Man up”, “Don’t be a Pussy, Crybaby, or the best…little girl”?  These common statements teach boys 2 things:  1.  Your feelings aren’t important and 2. Girls, because we are emotional energy, are weaker, lesser somehow (ladies, we are born feeling worthless).  In my journey, I have come to learn the importance of Equanimity:  the balance of mind, body and spirit…the balance of thought, action AND FEELINGS…as within, so without, right?  We must start understanding and teaching that the thoughts that drive the action begin with…yup, going to say it…YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS…when they are not aligned is when shit starts to go downhill.

Everything is about balance and chakras can be overactive, as well.  When that happens, you will find someone who is over-emotional (old Me for sure), fixated on sex, manipulative and/or unable to relax, to flow and just enjoy life at every moment (I’ll own this one as well).  I was always called too sensitive, or overly-emotional and I was very much, as an adult, someone who had a hard time relaxing, being present.  Mindfulness practices to be present were one of the first things I began working on over a year ago.  Simple things, like just stopping & breathing, giving thanks for little things, like a hot shower.  At first, I had to work at reminding myself to do this.  Now, it’s automatic.  The practices I’ve talked about (meditation, yoga, etc.) have also taught me I am not my emotions and although every emotion is valid, I no longer attach myself to them.  I acknowledge, accept and release.  I no longer am reactive when certain emotions, that used to be triggers, come up and I am able to see when others are projecting their emotions.  Pretty powerful shit, y’all.  I have also come to realize how fucking sacred my sexuality is.  I have my Twin to thank for that.  It is also sacred, and this have fucking frightened the shot out of the patriarchy since the beginning,because, we as women, are the ONLY ones who can connect the Spirit world with the Physical world, through the ability to give birth.  With great power comes great responsibility, thanks Spidey…my beautiful Divine sisters, it is up to us to find our balance within, to bring forth the balance we so desperately want to see in the world.

As always, I look forward to questions, comments and emails about any of this stuff I am writing about, as well as, Tarot reading/healing sessions.  I will post chakra information on our FB page, Oh My Goddess, and hope you will check it out, like and follow.

Peace, Love and Light

AK

P.S.  The colors of each chakra are important to note.  You can do lots of little things to bring balance to chakra by eating foods, wearing clothes, etc. of the color associated with each chakra.

P.P.S  Sacral chakra affirmations can begin with “I feel…” and “I create…”