Introducing “Eddy’s Happiness Project” with Selfish Mitch

You may have noticed that I haven’t been around much lately. My dog, my sweet, sweet bulldog, who was really my favorite person in the entire world, passed away suddenly when my son and I were out of town visiting family in Montana.

There was no warning. He was happy, jumping around, playing with his puppy brother all the time. He’d been swimming in the pool just days before he passed away. The night it happened, my husband called me and said be thought Eddy didn’t feel well. We faced timed and he looked mopey, but OK. He was always moody when his mom wasn’t home. I got to tell him I loved him and I’d be back in a few days.

Two hours later, my husband called to tell me that my best guy was gone. I’d say my heart was broken; is broken, but that doesn’t even begin to describe how deeply I’m feeling this pain and loss. This dog was more than my emotional support animal. He was the sweetest, silliest animal in the world. He came into our home as a 5 month old energetic American Bulldog puppy. When he wasn’t running, he was on my lap. He arrived shortly after I’d been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. The doctors had told me that I had blood markers that indicated I had an autoimmune disorder, but I didn’t check enough boxes yet for a diagnosis.

Eddy was with me. He was there when I had unexplained high fevers and pain. He didn’t mind missing his walk when my joints were too swollen to grasp his leash. Every night, between 9-10 PM, if I was in the living room, he’d growl at me until i went to bed. He wanted to go, but he doesn’t like to sleep alone. He wasn’t a smart dog, but it didn’t matter. He knew love. He knew how to comfort. He made us all laugh more times than we could even count. Every day of the seven and a half years he had on this world was filled with joy.

The night after he died, I was still in Montana with my family. My sleep was restless, but as soon as I woke up I felt the strongest wave of peace roll over my spirit. My sweet baby boy came to me in my dream and spoke to me. He told me that he was sorry he had to leave me, that he didn’t want to, but that it was necessary for him to go now so he could return to me when I need him the most in the future. He’s been back a few more times, reminding me to try to find joy. I feel him with me so, so much.

 

The best thing I can do right now, I think, is to honor his memory by taking a few risks. I’m going to dive right back into something that’s been a true PASSION in my life. I’m pretty good at most stuff I decide I want to do, and I happen to love working in real estate, but being on stage is what makes me light up. It fills my heart. With my heart feeling so, so broken right now, maybe putting myself out there can mend a shard or two of my heart. Time will help, I’m sure. The feelings I have so often that he’s still right here with me helps too, but I know that I’ll miss him deeply every single day until he returns to me. Little Thor is doing a lot of work around here, spreading his love around. He misses his big lug of a brother too, and I think they may still be communicating too. Sometimes I’ll think of Eddy and when I look at Thor he has his tongue sticking out. There are all kinds of little things like that that make me know that the Vail between the worlds of the living and the dead isn’t as heavy and restrictive as most people think it is.

I’m incredibly grateful that AK and I started our dialogues that have lead us to where we are right now. If feel like I’m growing at a pretty astounding rate. As I dive into spirituality, my mind feels open. I the impulse to be kind to strangers a lot more. I am coming to be really tuned in to my empath abilities. I’m very grateful for that. The more I learn about being an empath, it just checks so many boxes. I’m using this ability to better help my real estate clients. I’m using it to be a better friend. A better wife, mother, and sister. There are no limits, as I’m a firm proponent of lifetime learning.

I think if I hadn’t been going down this spiritual path of self discovery, self love, and self care, I’d be a much bigger mess. I’m still feeling the loss. I’ll sometimes have a memory pop up out of nowhere and it feels like someone has punched me, HARD, in the gut. It makes it hard to breathe. I have techniques and breathing that can help me. I can get up and do some exercise to get endorphins flowing. If this had happened a year ago, I’m pretty sure I’d be looking for answers at the bottom of a bourbon bottle. If it took 3 weeks of constant drunkenness, then that’s what I would have done. That’s not who I am anymore. I’m making healthy choices, physically, mentally, emotionally, and financially. I am going to take control of my life to find a way to build that happiness Eddy always wanted.

I’m proud to know that I’ll be starting Eddy’s Happiness Project. I’m going to spend a lot of time journaling. I’ll start each day by writing gratitudes. Then, I’ll make 3 bucket lists. I’ll have a short term bucket list, a long term bucket list, and an ongoing bucket list.

For example, my first item on my short term bucket list is auditioning for a couple plays with local theater companies. I think short term goals should be fairly easy enough to complete in 3-4 months.

My long term bucket list includes getting a speaking role on a TV show or movie. Even if I’m just there as an extra with a couple of lines, I’m into it. Most of these long term goals should be achievable in 1-2 years. I’ll put longer term goals too, like AK and I flying to Montana, renting a car, and hiking different trails all over the state for a month. I don’t know that we could make a month happen right now, but a few years down the road it should be easily doable if we are clear in our intent, ask the universe for what we want, and do the work it takes to get us there.

My ongoing bucket list will contain things like 5 workouts a week and eating on-plan 80% of the time. It will also show my dedication to my work commitments. That one is important, because I plan to buy myself gifts when I achieve milestones.

I’ll be sharing my results here quite frequently, so please follow along! If you’ve been looking to bring more happiness and joy into your life, this might be a great way to do it. All you need is journal, an open heart, and an open mind. Oh, and pens or pencils, I suppose.

Feel free to contact me at any time if I can be of any help to you!

If you’re trying to to bring yourself up from grief and/or depression, I want to help. Let’s be those rays of happy sunshine that breaks through the clouds of despair.

Wishing you love, light, and peace,

Selfish Mitch

Some Random Chakra Shit to Share

Hey all, I hope this blog finds you well and moving smoothly through these intense energies.  I had a great few days and felt I was rolling through Lion’s Gate (which ends today) then, the Ascension Flu (yes, there is such a thing).  Body aches, hot/cold, nausea, you know the drill…only this is not viral related…it is triggered by ascension so the body can purge to be able to hold high vibrational energy on the daily.  It’s fucking crazy, but true…I am merging my high vibrational light into this 3D reality…and I know I”m going through it now to guide others when they’re time comes.  Whether anyone likes it, or not, it’s coming…the mass raising of human consciousness.  Learning the chakra system, mediating, getting tarot readings, reiki, using crystals, grounding…all this shit I write about will become, for most, daily spiritual practices.  They will become essential to functioning in a 4D reality.

So, there are a few last random things I’d like to share about the chakras.  Chakra work doesn’t just have to happen when meditating, it aligns in yoga, food you eat, clothes you wear, using crystals/stones that align can work amazing magic.  I am not all about recreating the damn wheel, so I’ll attach a shit ton of links and post info on the FB page (Oh My Goddess) and am planning on sharing my practices and tools I use to show my self love and stay aligned with the Divine.  Anyways, the colors of the chakras are the key to figuring out what to eat, clothing and crystals.  You can use colored candles, incense, aromatherapy, essential oils…I think you get the idea.

My daily yoga flow covers all of the chakras and it is fucking powerful shit, you guys.  I have had days when certain poses open the chakra and I am overcome with releasing.  I have a blog planned, dedicated solely to my experiences, love of yoga.  Of course I do, I have a fucking ton of blogs to put out, lol.  Anyways, yoga is all about aligning mind, body and spirit, it is as much a spiritual practice, as a form of exercise.  You can use yoga poses to work on physical symptoms associated with each chakra, as well as, internal releasing.  I can think of one time specifically that I was in a child pose and out of nowhere I was sobbing, so fucking hard, aching, heart breaking heavy sobs…I had no idea where it came from, still don’t, but it clearly need to be released and I let it.  Child Pose is associated with the throat chakra, knowing this leads me to believe it was something abut not speaking my truth, this was a few months ago and I was still feeling pretty confused about my new path.  Lately, it’s been my lower chakras.

In November 2016, I fell and fucked my ankle up…bad, the surgeon said it would have been better if I broke it.  It was at the end of my Dark Night of the Soul (another day, lol), part of spiritual awakening, and I now know it was the physical manifestation of being completely broken on the inside.  I was spiritually, mentally, financially,emotionally and now physically broke as fuck.  After months of pills, rescheduled appointments and giving up on physical therapy, I gave up on healing my ankle, did the best I could (totally overcompensating on the other ankle, of course) and began focusing on healing my shit on the inside.  June 2017, I began my daily mediation practice and within days felt guided to start yoga.  Long story short for now, chakras are the focus here…starting yoga began my journey of healing my physical body.  Lately, many aches are from this old ass injury and I am totally realigning my physical body. A client of mine is a yoga instructor and she gave me the best tip:  breathe breath into outer ankle to inner ankle, on the exhale imagine all four corners of your foot stable on the ground…holy shit, the amount of healing changing how I balance my weight through my ankles & feet has been off the charts, but not going to lie…fucking painful, my physical body is deep in discomfort.  Although , it kinda feels good, knowing it’s bringing something better…an aligned, bad ass body for this soon to be 43 year old is worth some pain and discomfort. All of this happens to align to my root and sacral chakra…poses I do for this are Mountain Pose (root, also great for grounding) and the painfully exquisite Pigeon Pose (sacral, also great for hip opening).  I’ve cried releasing in the Pigeon Pose, as well…I’m a crier, y’all…good, bad, it doesn’t fucking matter…I’m a heart on my sleeve goddess and I embrace it.

A few last random thoughts on the chakras:  I may have not mentioned the most commonly blocked chakras for men are the upper chakras (throat, 3rd eye and Crown), opposite in feminines (big fucking shocker there).

Pangs, pains, aches and twitches in your physical body are usually your chakras communicating with you.  The area will align to the chakra…headaches, 3rd Eye and/or Crown…most people just ignore these subtle ways our spirit and body communicate with our mind.  Sadly, programming has left most completely unaware of this.  Hopefully, we will begin teaching chakras in schools, as they should be taught at a young age…they would be if I had my own school.

I think that’s about all I got in me for the chakra series.  I hope it’s been informational and helpful.  Please reach out if you have any questions, or need guidance.  Not sure what’s coming  next, but that pretty much sums up my whole fucking life.  Have an amazing day, loves!

Peace Love & Light to You All

AK

P.S.  I’ll check in with my chakra test results next week.

 

 

Up for a Chakra Challenge?

Hey all, I was guided to a website the other day (eclecticenergies.com) and found a chakra test.  I wanted to get to this yesterday to start the month of August (my birth month…whoop, whoop), but didn’t have the energy.  We are in the Lion’s Gate portal (Aug. 8th) leading to a partial solar eclipse on the 11th…August is set to bring MASSIVE changes for folks, and I have definitely been feeling the energies pushing to close cycles and allow space for change.  Even when I am feeling fully aligned and high energy, I can be taken over with the energies of others (especially my Twin), even the whole damn human collective.  It is one of the toughest assignments for first wave Twin Flames, as we are the leaders in grounding 5D energy into Gaia.  So, I was curious how this chakra test worked and what info it would give me.  My results are posted below..

                                      

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Nothing here really shocked me, it pretty much aligns to my awareness of self and my chakras.  I do wish they would explain the percent ranges on the site, but I feel you ideally want all chakras around 50%.  Although, fuck…I was just happy they were all open.  I have been doing a lot of work on my base chakras (root, sacral & solar plexus), as well as, heart chakra openings…clearly, I can lay off the heart chakra work.  Although, my problem there isn’t about giving, as much as, learning how to soften and be open to receiving.  Typical for the givers of the world, especially Divine feminines.  The over-active chakras were of no surprise to me…I have always been a head in the clouds kind of girl…this is extremely common with Earth Angels, as we have a hard time being grounded in the physical reality.  One big recent awareness of self that has been illuminate, is my propensity to be naive, to trust all and not call it as it is…see people for who they really are, knowing who they could be, but only if they so choose.  Knowing my chakras has helped me identify and release all the shit I used to carry.

If anyone out there is interested in taking the test, sharing the results and talking chakra guidance, comment or send us an email at ohmmygoddess@gmail.com…would love to support anyone who is interested.  I will do my work with my overactive and base chakras and check in, maybe weekly? Most definitely on the 31st of August (My bday).  The last chakra post will be out soon, just some last random info I feel guided to share.  Have a magical day!!
Peace Love and Light

AK

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Straighten Your Crown…You Are Divine

We all wear a crown, most of us aren’t aware of it.  Programming has us believing that God is something separate from us.  This distorted God of organized religion has us all fucked up, unable to see that we are all God, the embodiment of unconditional love and light in human form.  The Crown chakra is located at the top of the head, this purple chakra influences our spirituality, our connection to higher consciousness, inspiration and wisdom.  When blocked, we experience loneliness, depression, mental disorders, confusion, lack of purpose and/or sleep problems.  I have definitely experienced a blocked crown throughout my life and definitely through my spiritual awakening.

As a child, loneliness was common…I never felt like I fit in anywhere, not even with my family.  As I’ve gone through my awakening, I’ve come to realize that this is quite common with lightworkers (Twin Flames, Starseeds, Empaths, Earth Angels, etc.).  The times I felt the least alone were actually the times I was alone…weird, I know, but true. When alone, I could read,  listen to music, daydream and connect to my spirit guide and angels.  In this place, I was never alone…in crowds, or around people, was the opposite.  Still is…as an Introvert, I love my quiet, alone time…it is essential for me.  It is essential for all of us.  The loneliness of a spiritual awakening is for a purpose, to learn that you are never alone when connected to the Divine.

As of late, I have been a little cloudy on why I’ve gone through this awakening, what is my purpose now.  I knew at an early age I wanted to be a teacher and leaving teaching was one of the most confusing decisions.  I was guided to do so and felt at peace with the decision, but what the fuck was I going to do next?  I started this blog, guided to share my experience with you all, but wondered what else?  I know, and have always known, that I was destined for something big, but I had no clue what that big was…still a little unsure, but the unfolding of the path has been absolutely magical.  The massive shifts happening to all, have for me, brought more clarity to who I am at a soul level and why I am here.   I’ll blog on this very soon and possibly do a video on our YouTube channel.  Since the blog, I have started 2 YouTube channels with the hope, like the blog, of planting seeds of awareness and helping others through shifts in consciousness that we all are experiencing.  I have also started my own Tarot business with the intention of guiding other’s through their journey of self-transformation.  It’s busy, but I love it and time means nothing when I’m helping others with love and passion.

How do we open the Crown chakra and our connection to the Divine?  MEDITATE, MEDITATE, MEDITATE…I cannot say it enough.  If there is one practice we all should do and teach our children it’s MEDITATE.  As I’ve said before, you are the only one who knows you best.  But, what you do you know?  The ego/3D you or the Divine/5D you?  Meditation is the best way to learn and know yourself at a soul level and I will blog on this soon, as well.    Meditating as little as 10 minutes a day can change your whole perspective on self and others, as well as it’s millions of other benefits.  Prayer is another way to connect, but not the fucked up praying of organized religion.  My mother to this day, tells me I need to get on my knees and pray…ummmm, hello, this is the girl that literally communicates with angels, pretty sure I’ve got my own way of praying.  That’s the thing about spirituality, meditation, prayer…there is no one way of, or right way,  doing it.  It’s all about YOU and what works best for YOU.  I meditate a lot more than 10 minutes a day, operating from a higher consciousness, I sometimes feel I am in a meditative state most of the time.  That’s just me, though…Selfish Mitch was very resistant to meditation until recently and I hope she’ll blog (hint, hint) about her experience and how she makes meditation work for her.

An open, balanced Crown chakra brings peace, unity consciousness, clarity of thought and purpose aligned to intuition and enlightenment.  Listen, this is not easy and we are programmed to be attached to the material world, but to reach a higher consciousness, we must detach from possessions and relationships, they do not define us at a soul level.  Spirituality is not about religion…it is about YOU and your relationship to self and Source (or God, if you prefer).  I tend to not use either label, but choose to call it the Divine, the Universe, spirit…you get to choose what resonates with you.  I read somewhere that religion is for people who fear hell, spirituality for those who have been through hell.  Connecting with the non-physical, through your Crown chakra, you learn there is nothing to fear, fear is an illusion, programmed into us to keep us ignorant to the truth…we are all Divine, we are all Source energy here to have a human experience.

I have to tell y’all, this has been the hardest chakra to write about…I though it would be simple, but it touches on so many sensitive subjects, like God, religion, human versus soul…and I’m struggling a bit with explaining it all…oh fucking well, all I can do is try.  If you have any questions, or need guidance, in starting a meditation practice(or anything else), please comment, e-mail, reach out in any way…I’m always here to help anyone in any way I can.  I hope you all have a magical day!!

Peace Love and Light Beautiful Souls

AK

Divine Bad Ass Goddess

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See More with Your Eye, than with Your Eyes

Oh me, oh my…so much to say about the 6th Chakra, the Third Eye chakra.  This Indigo chakra is located in the center of your forehead.  It is the energy center for intuition, imagination, self-realization, clarity, transcendence and psychic abilities.  These past few days, as we move towards the Blood Moon Eclipse (which is expected to be the longest eclipse, ever), the energies are crazy and my third eye has been going through a serious activation.  Feeling tingling in the forehead, pressure around the eyes and temples are signs of your third eye opening and these have been super intense for me.  The universal energies are affecting everyone, whether aware of it, or not.  For me, this time is a serious shift in my ascension.  I did a daily draw reading with Selfish Mitch this morning and her first card was the 6th chakra card…no coincidences, loves.  We did a full energy reading a few nights ago and spirit was definitely guiding her to trust her intuition.  Which I know first hand is not so easy to do.   EVERYTHING is Divinely orchestrated, pretty fucking mind blowing when you realize how it all works.  Opening and strengthening your third eye is essential in understanding how the Universe works.

In high school, I started to get severe migraines.  Blood tests were done, doctors seen, meds given…but no explanation for why I they were happening.  Maybe anemia, dehydration, anxiety, over sensitive…what a fucking joke.  Migraines continued off and on throughout my life until I started meditating.  It wasn’t anything modern medicine could answer, as with most things there was a much simpler ancient way of curing my migraines…self-awareness, trust in myself and learning how to do this through practices like meditation, yoga, journalling (I do automatic/channeled writing), clean eating and trial and error.  One of my favorite things about using Tarot cards is the help they give in confirming what I am receiving through my spidey senses (the name for my psychic abilities).  My migraines were the physical manifestation of not listening to and trusting my intuition.  Some of the other symptoms of a blocked 6th chakra are:  anxiety, depression, insomnia, eye ans/or facial problems, like cataracts or acne.

There is so much more to see than what’s physically in front of your face and that’s where your third eye comes in.  When it’s blocked you will feel a lack of focus, poor judgment/imagination and are unable to see beyond the physical.  Most humans are here, the third eye has been made out as something only for the bat-shit crazy…the programming is deep on this one, peeps.  We have been taught not to trust our intuition, to always go logical, but some shit just isn’t logical.  Our intuition is tied to our emotional body…if it feels right, looks right than it’s a go…sure that one makes sense.  If it feels wrong and looks wrong…it’s wrong.  No fucking surprise there.  Now how about this…if it looks wrong, but feels right…what do you do?  Most overthink it and go with logic, ignoring the feeling…bad move…that is usually where we fuck it up…it goes against our intuition.  When I made the decision to retire from teaching, it looked wrong, real fucking wrong…not just to me, to everyone.  It felt right, though and when I signed that paper, it was pure freedom…it felt so fucking amazing and I felt lighter than I had in years.  It was terrifying and logically it made very little sense, but how it felt was all I needed to know that I made the right decision.  Last one, what if it looks right, but feels wrong…DON”T FUCKING DO IT!!!  Lol, no seriously, don’t go there…whatever, or whomever it is, stay the fuck away…trust your feeling it fuels your intuition.

An overactive Third Eye is a whole ‘nother ball game of whackadoodle and feel it explains a number of mental illnesses (we’ll go there another day).  Nightmares, delusions, hallucinations, obsessive behaviors and seeing too many entities and/or spirits are what happens when one has an overactive 6th chakra.  I can honestly say that nightmares are really the only one of these symptoms I’ve experienced and it’s been a hell of a long time since even that has happened.  As a child, trauma was the catalyst to my nightmares and a period of sleepwalking.  I don’t really remember much except they occurred during a time that I felt scared and very alone.  When I do childhood regressions to heal my inner child, I generally don’t “see” the experience, I feel it…I literally feel the emotions of how I felt at that time…it’s how I work as an Empath and my strongest psychic ability.  Clairvoyance is something new to me that really began opening around the summer solstice and I am just beginning to get comfortable with being shown things.  I can totally empathize with those who experience and overactive 3rd eye now, as “hallucinations” or visions, can make you feel absolutely bat-shit crazy.  I believe this is why so many are labeled mentally ill, when they are actually awake and open to the non-physical.

The seat of the Third Eye is the Pineal Gland…I’m going to get a little scientific here, but not too much…I am jsut starting to learn and study the science part of spirituality and it is fucking mind blowing.  Have you ever heard of the Pineal gland?  Did we learn this in anatomy classes?  I know I sure didn’t and why the fuck not?  It’s a part of my body and I’m kept in the goddamn dark about it…fucking mind control, programming, this shit is fucked up, y’all.  Anyways, the pineal gland is a gland located  in the brain, where I’ve described the location of the 3rd Eye chakra…I’m going to attach some related articles and shit, because quite honestly the science part is not my forte…I know this, Fluoride, that has been given to us for many years, calcifies and blocks the pineal gland.  Our government has been giving as something that is meant to control our ability to use our 3rd eye chakra, as well as, causing cancer.  I have recently began practices that help decalcify the pineal gland in order to have my 3rd eye functioning as it should.  Sunlight is a big one that helps do this, as well as, changing my diet.  We are being controlled through our food, our water supply, our media…fucking everything and all will be exposed soon, why not get a jump on the massive shifts that are happening in the human collective?  I will do a blog next week on foods and chakras.  Enough science and anarchy for now though.

This has probably gotten a little long winded, lol…guess all this 3rd eye activation I’m experiencing, along with telepathy has got me fired up about this amazing chakra.  It’s a fucking trip, y’all…the telepathy, my Twin Flame & I have been communicating through all of our chakras for quite sometime, but these current universal energies have ramped it the fuck up.  Truth, still quite surreal to know what someone (that I’m not even speaking to) is thinking and feeling at any given moment in the day and in dreams (5D), as well.  This eclipse is a great time to try meditation (if you don’t already do it) and go inward, use/open your 3rd eye chakra to get the answers you seek.  You are your own best guru…there are many, like me, who can offer guidance and healing, but ultimately it’s you that knows you best, you just have to get to know yourself at a soul level.  Once there, you will see how absolutely amazing and fucking powerful you are!!

Peace Love & Light Beautiful Souls

AK

P.S.  Tomorrow I will be going on our YouTube channel…OhmMyGoddess to do eclipse readings for the Zodiac signs, check it out if your interested on what the Universe is asking you to release during this powerful shift.

July 2018 Birchbox vs July 2018 Ipsy- A Selfish Mitch Review

I was going to do these separately, but they both came when I was out of town for a few days, so I thought it would be great to open them at the same time and see what we’re working with. Both boxes are $10 a month with free shipping, and it’s a fun, inexpensive way to spoil myself and try things I’d probably never pick up in the store.

Which box did you prefer? What piece did my puppy steal?

I also talk about self care and why it’s so vitally important. It’s important for everyone, but the way AK feeds her soul is very different from the way I feed mine, and my neighbors and other girlfriends do something completely different. We’re here to give you ideas, but you don’t have to do what we do. Find what works for your life; find what sets fire to your soul, and do that.

 

With peace, light, and one less lip liner,

Selfish Mitch

Speak Your Truth…But Don’t Forget to Listen

FUUUUUUCK, let me clear my throat…actually, saying Fuck is a great way to clear your Throat Chakra.  This turquoise chakra is located at the center of your throat and controls your ability to be confident, speak clearly and the hardest listen to others’ truths, with no judgement.  Looking back, I’ve gone back and forth between being balanced, overactive and blocked…that’s me a fucking walking contradiction.  ‘Tis a real thing for Empaths, as we absorb the energy around us when we are not in balance.  A balanced Empath knows how to control the energy, put out rather than let in…it’s pretty fucking cool how powerful we all are once we understand that we are energetic beings.  Writing this blog is one way I keep a balanced throat chakra, as all forms of communication flow through this chakra.

As always, I’m going to keep it real…I have absolutely had an overactive throat chakra throughout different times in my life.  How do you know if this chakra is overactive, AK?  Well, let me tell you…opinionated, loud, critical, gossipy, talks over others, uses harsh words…sound familiar to you?  It certainly pertains to me.  Ugh, hard to accept that I absolutely acted in these ways…kind of makes me cringe.  Yet, I can’t get mad at myself, there were so many things I didn’t know and programming is a motherfucker.  So, I have accepted that part of me and work everyday to be better, balanced, always coming from a place of pure love.  Feminines have been programmed to behave this way, this shit is everywhere…the belief that we must compete against each other, put each other down to build ourselves up is disgusting and it is up to us to stop it.

Not only have I acted out in these ways, but being the child of a narcissist, harsh words, judgments and criticism are all things I experienced (and still do) on the daily.  One of the hardest boundaries I’ve had to set is not talking to my mother.  Every time I talk to her I am put down, dismissed and made to feel inadequate.  It fucking sucks, y’all…to be so aware of what’s happening (she’s projecting her own insecurities and fears onto me) and accept that that’s just the way it’s going to be.  This is my truth…I will never have the mother I so desperately wanted.  How do I transmute this pain from a place of pure love?  I am grateful that she taught me how not to be a mother.  As a mother, I am the exact opposite and am at peace knowing this.  Listen, I love my mother, I love everyone, but that doesn’t mean I have to put up with verbal and emotional abuse, I choose to set boundaries that protect my energy, as fucking hard as it can be.
Then there’s the flip side, the blocked Throat Chakra.  Yup, been there, too…this one more recently because for me, I have always blocked my truth from others.  When you know at a young age that you are different, that you scare people and know things that others don’t understand, you tend to become a people-pleaser to just make everyone happy.  This happens to more children than you think, as all children are psychic and more aware of the non-physical.  It is a common trait among children and adults of Narcissist abuse.  I’ll write a more in depth blog about that soon.  So, when one has a blocked throat chakra, they are unable to express themselves, misunderstood, secretive and not very good a listening.  Listening is a fucking BIG one for me.  I read people at a soul level, when they talk I don’t always listen to their words because I am feeling and receiving information about them on an energetic level, through my psychic abilities.  It’s a tough one, folks and one I work on daily.  I’ve also come to the awareness that most people never really listen to each other.  Most seem to listen just to reply, in fact they have a reply before you even finish what the fuck you were saying.  Again, I’m guilty of this, but awareness of the problem is the way to better yourself.  I believe it is hard for humans, because of programming, to listen to ourselves, as well…our true selves, our higher selves, our souls.  The truth can be fucking brutal and we have been conditioned to blame and play victim instead of taking responsibility, be accountable for our own shit.

When the 5th chakra is overactive/blocked, you may physically feel: a sore, scratchy throat, stiff neck, swollen glands, tooth/gum problems and hearing problems. Ears and throat are most definitely connected.  Also, this chakra is usually blocked because of experiences (such as my own) from childhood moments/experiences.  I’ve done a shit ton of childhood regressions, through Tarot and meditation, that have helped me heal from those experiences and in turn, heal my Throat Chakra.  Keeping it real, it was fucking brutal work.  I’m telling you all, total truth, getting to place of self love is the hardest fucking thing to do…but, the reward of living a free, fulfilled life…no better gift you can give yourself.   Another thing about this chakra is what you think and say is your Karma and I have definitely paid some major Karmic debt for the shitty, judgmental, gossipy bullshit I put out there.  Whether this lifetime, or another, your Karma will have to be repaid.

Clearly, my Throat chakra is flowing today, but I will end here.  Recently, my channeling has taken a shift and I am being guided to act as a Divine Feminine Oracle, to inspire,  empower and guide all feminines to heal and love themselves…the journey is tough, but so are you, beautiful souls.  Please do not hesitate to reach out in any way…you are never alone and loved more than you know.

Peace Love and Light

AK

Divine Warrior Goddess

P.S.  I have so much to share about the Chakra system, that after I go through each one, there will be a few more tied to yoga, crystals, etc.  I will also be posting memes and infographics on our FB page (Oh My Goddess), so like/follow etc.